Pursue!

I was impressed and feel tortured by his word~ sword

(in issue of tawwakal)

ISLAM

is not religion that say

WAIT AND SEE

but 

>ISLAM IS<

PURSUE AND SEE

did TERKESAN KAT AYAT

jangan kata

SAYA MENUNGGU DIA YANG TERTULIS DI LUH MAHFUZ

Saya menunggu si dia, Hamboiii

(aik.. guni beras mana hempap pale aku nih! ahha)

after u did all the usaha. by ALL MEANS

gulp, usaha!, erm. 

i dont have the courage.

i dont even have the guts

to change myself

to be someone who ready to enter Marriage life

to leave my Teenage life. erk!

but,, i am actually worried and afraid

i know i couldnt be like the mothers of 

Imam Hanafi

Imam Maliki

Imam Syafie

Imam Hanbai

these women

they are ready

they built theirs attitude

way ahead

before these women married 

before even being a mother

recite quran

perform subuh and leave the BED

nice, good, honest

ensuring HALAL

for every source of theirs'

and me!

what did i am ready with

what i am prepared with

surely theres a long long highway

or might be,, jalan perseketuan,,

which will entertain me with tonnes of juction

here and there,

( he did mention about how Khadija and Dearest Prophet Muhammad, peace be upon him)

it calm me a lil' but still,

Khadijah is a Great women

Muhammad is Great men

surely they can

what did i have!!

sob sob

May Allah hep me to build up my courage

but first of All

to strengthen up my ISLAM first

in every way on how i lead my life

__________________________________________

 ayah mak, nak kawen

BUT YET U DID NOT DO ANYTHING THAT SERIOUSLY SHOWN 

' I WANNA GET MARRIED'

he said he already take kursus kawen forth time.. still he thought not enuff.. how he take marriage seriously!. kan!