Voyage

i was so affected by this video. Again, ive know about this amazing story of uthman. yes, but everytime i reach how he died, how Rasullah met him in his dream in the minutes of 25+ it tears me up. seriously, and i was reminded with the verse of Suratul Fajr. A very beautiful surah. a very beautiful verse which makes me feel so sedih. Am i among them ya Allah, please makes me and my family, and my friends as the rest assured soul, and be the people of ur jannah.

Sobbing, I am lost yesterday, early in the morning went to PK , Pusat Kesihatan UTM I want to check for my cholestrol, and so and so so, turn out that when i met the doctor, she ask me, whether i am fasting today, what??!! i just eat yogurt just now. if only i know ahha, teruk btul. so, to day i went for the doctor, amik darah. nurse ckp my blood vessel kecik no she said budak zaman sekarang, mana buat kerja ngadap komputer. tapi dye ckp baik2 cume sentap k. ahha tangan pun sakit. sebab kene cucuk 2 kali ngee what actually happen is tak derla takut nak amki injection kalo zaman kanak2 riang. darjah1-2 nyorok bawah meja tapi darjah 6 dah berani da. tak takut, till now tetibe rase berdebar sangat, waktu nurse pegang jarum. takderkla besar sangat, tapi takutnya!!! nauzubillah. huhu, y y y cucuk2 - tak kuo darah. o my!!!! kene cucuk kat tempat laen. pity me. and, yes, after few hours, dapat result, jumpe DR. She say, alhamdulillah my result is okay...

Beneath me, something plays on i was so so under pressure a day before, i slept with anger and unsorted things on my mind i just being depressed. which why i wrote "Research that kills me" i was thinking of not going for Mujahid Training. well, i couldnt help much. so and so. but, i kinda i put something on my wall, written as "What did u do to serve Allah, today? " #NAK, Khutbah IIUM So, Alhamdulillah, i hardly think of anything i just say, i need to be there. alhamdulillah. something good happens As a gift from ALLAH Today,, i shall said, way good for me, i dont really push myself reaaaaly hard. upon waking in the morning. i dont even know, shall i go to lab or studying by my own in my comfort room and i struggling by the facts of my drowsiness as soon as i read anything later that i know, after having shower, i decided to find a good cloth that i suddenly wannna wear it. and, minutes goes by, i just start ironing realizing,...

i am trying hard to focus, but sadly, i was so trap by myself drowsiness and everything i am pushing myself this few days i am pushing myself real hard Maybe i could do something extraordinary-real hard at least i could benefit something but still, i am getting nowhere such as, i read on the paper with a blank mind have u heard about the surah that mention, when u do the sadakah, with shirk on it, there is no sincerity on it, and u hurt the ones who receives ur sadakah by all means in suratul baqarah. its like, a stone being decorated by magnificient sand (ahha-metaphore sangat... it just stone with sand on their surface) and when Allah send heavily rain, it leave the stone by its own the sand is vanished.nothing more. thats another story, but what i am trying to say that, after all these while, i am putting sand on the stone by reading i come to notice that, the sand slowly dissapear, sometimes its like, i never see any sand anymore what i read just ...